The Calm Before the Storm

Apart from the 60 essays to grade and the materials to make for next week, I have a day of nothing stretching ahead of me. Thank God. It has been a hectic week; field trip, exhibition night, dinner dance, spring cleaning. I'm the tired that bring tears to your eyes and my feet have started to swell.

Five more days of school and then I will not stand infront of a classroom of students for 6 months. The prospect of having to go through a "first year" again is terrifying, so I'm going to continue creating "The System part deux" this summer just like I was going back as normal. I fear that if I don't I'll repeat some of the hell of this year again. For example, for some reason it took me until January to implement a really successful bathroom policy I had started the year before. I found myself having to play the bathroom game with kids for a few months. Why? I think I lost my mind a little at the beginning.

I'm excited to think about school and a little sad to not be going back full time and starting all over again. Amazing what a little time and an easier last couple of months can do. These thoughts go through my head and I feel guilty - remind myself I have a baby coming and should be thinking about her. But school seems more real right now. Also, when she arrives I doubt I'll have time to think about hallway procedures and assessment reflection forms.